School wasn't that fun anymore to me. I already hate school. I never want to go to school anymore. I got scolded and I was shouted by teacher. I have to stand infront of the class door and people stare at me. I was embarresed by my maths teachers and my friend Qistina was in this too. Qistina and I were sitting together in class. I looked outside for a little while and Qistina was listening to teacher. I looked back in class and teacher started scolding me like "Two of the girls behind stand up! Get out of my class now! Always talking! Get out! I hate you! I say get out!" I was feeling abit weird cause Qistina and I weren't talking at all and she started scolding us. I want a gun or a knife. I want someone to kill her. I want someone to chop her into pieces. I want her to be in my curse. I want someone to shoot her in the head. I want someone to shout in her face. I want to kick her. I want to punch her. I want to do everything that will humilate her and that will make her feel hurt. Lastly, I want her to die. My day went totally wrong and it's a disaster. Someone and only that person cheer me up while I was down. It was Fara Alia. She cheer me up other than other people who let me down. I was really hurt to hear this but Jiayee was right. I was really a bad-influence to other people but thats just letting me down more. Frankly speaking, I was really mad but yeah, she was so right and I just have to agree with that. I decide to avoid using bad words and I'm gonna make a change in me. I cried like mad in photography. I just told my secret to Jiayee and Alyssa and I still think they don't get it. That "thing" was what happened now. I don't want to be like this anymore!
Thanks Fara for cheering me up and yes, I'm gonna try to chill. Thanks for the "Madcon - Beggin' you" song. I still love it. It's between both of us only.
