This is sick

I feel so sick looking at one girl's wall. She is like so close to him already. I have to say she is pretty and pretty...? But I feel so sick. I don't wanna like him anymore and I just want to hate him. He is so awesome in breaking promises! I remember everything he said. Sadly, I can't tell you all the things we talk about here cause it might be so obvious for you to know who on this earth is my crush. This girl is crazy about him and I tought after boys know that you like em', they'll try avoiding you. But when he knew that she is in love with him, he grew much more closer to her. I hate to see them talking. It disgusted me. Maybe I'm jealous of her. There's one rude thing he said to me just now. Real rude. Not gonna tell you, it'll be obvious. He made my day sucked! He seriously did! I want to stop likeing him but I think I really failed to. I think I'm still in love with him. But please, I don't want that okay? I dislike him. I need someone ♥