myself , me & i are in one body . lol wth?

i'm more likely to myself in school , quiet much cause i don't talk to "starngers" . actually , this is when im in school . i wrote this in school . using pencil then i came back to blog it . you know what im talking about? nevermind . God like isn't on my side  . i kept asking myself " why are You doing this to me , God? i don't get it " my life isn't normal like it used to be . im not in a good school , the life im living is sad . i can't find my friends when im suppose to , embarresed me & etc . it's very sad seriously , i don't understand why . i don't like the way i feel . and of course , im so pissed ! pissed like hell . i can't take this . people say miracles do work , but why doesn't it work on me? i wanted to go to my broh's school on the first day school but it didn't happen . i wanted the teacher in my  school to tell  me that im no longer a student in the school and currently a student in SMK BUD 4 , and it didn't happened . i prayed and prayed and prayed but nothing happen . its like ........ i don't know . you won't understand . you know , i feel like i don't wanna live anymore , feel like i want to giveup everything !