I want to survive in that Perfect Pain

Today is such a saddening day cause of Shaun! He made me sad the whole day I was in school. First, it started great. Like great. And suddenly, he started scolding me and say because of me he was grounded for 7 months or the whole year. He couldn't even used Facebook. I swore the F word and he told me his father was beside him. That happened about a couple of days ago and today he was mad at me like hell. Seriously, taught he was kidding and then I just noticed how mad his face was. I kept on apologising to him but he wouldn't listen. He ignored me instead. I am pisst off. Alyssa can't help but this one word I would never actually get it out from my head was "What if he never forgives you till the end of this year?". This was said by Alyssa and it keeps on replaying in my head. There's nothing much to talk about today just this PERFECT PAIN I'm going through. I'm still mad and I will be till' I know he was just joking.